Precious Darling

I may be over you but I still went on your facebook to see if there was a picture of you in a prom dress. Considering that tonight is our school’s prom. 

I’m sorry, I just wanted to see you looking stunningly beautiful one last time.

Guess that’s not gonna happen.

everybody keeps telling me, “we need to find you a hot girlfriend.”

i don’t get it thooo. do i deserve one or what

i love you babe

said no one to me ever

Eventually I found her. But I had to work up the nerve to talk to her because just seeing her in person made me super nervous. It was the first time I heard her voice. For the rest of the evening, I tried keeping her voice in my head so I can enjoy it a little bit longer. Because I knew once it’s gone, I’ll never hear it again.

From My Diary:

“‘Would you give me your Mac if I got you a date with [my old crush] and got her to kiss you?’ (My best friend asked me this)

Immediately, I said yes like an idiot. She then said that i’m too innocent. I wouldn’t do anything else like see her naked or have sex with her.

Even if it’s imaginary or ‘let’s pretend’, the relationship is already rushed. 1 kiss. ONE. Is better than anything in the world especially if it’s from [said crush]. I wouldn’t honestly care if I never see her naked or whatever. 1 kiss from her is all I need. I’d cherish it forever unlike some people. Wanna know why? Because I’ve never been in the ONE relationship, I don’t rush things. In fact, I’m ashamed of my body. I’m at that point where I feel like NOBODY will love me because of my ugly body. Because I’m fat. My body is embarrassing.”

I should really consider quitting facebook. Not deleting it but just not go on it.

Every time I see you on my news feed, i literally jump inside. And when your face appears, my heart shatters all over again.

I just can’t take that anymore. I don’t dare delete you because I still remember looking for your facebook for 3 days just to find out your name.

I like your lumps. Be mine?

My best friend is the only person that would get my stupid joke if I were to show her this. But we’re fighting so i’ll just leave this here.

My best friend is the only person that would get my stupid joke if I were to show her this. But we’re fighting so i’ll just leave this here.

i just realize today that next month makes it 2 years that i’ve liked the same girl

too bad i don’t like her anymore, i guess i have someone else to thank for that

if you take me to see a horror movie

you best believe i’ll hold on to you real tight throughout the entire movie