why do i see myself giving more head than receiving
Pretty sure it’s a tradition that I make a complete idiot of myself infront of girls I like
It’s becoming a habit. The question is, is it healthy or not?
Chances are I’m that person you’d never expected to be. If I like you to the point that I care about you, then I think about you occasionally. I’ll like talking to you because you make me happy. I’ll loose sleep just to make sure you’re ok, even if it’s often. I’ll make you random cute stuff to make you happy or just because. I’ll keep an eye on you from afar, hoping you’d talk to me if you are in pain so I can take your suffering away despite if it’s temporarily.
Chances are, I’m someone you’d never expect to meet.
I talked to my boss today on the phone. And it was a little nerve wracking. She is basically my future. She’s tied to my ‘bright future’. Everything is soon to be set in stone.
She tells me that I would be dealing with people who have PTSD and that I would be helping them get their life back together.
It’s funny that she says that because I’m currently trying to get my life back together. I’m in the worst place I’ve ever been in my life this past year and I can’t help blame all those who left me for putting me there.
She then tells me that I would be perfect in helping those people. And I just can’t grasp that idea. My mind is in a different place. I’m no longer who I use to be. Therefore I can’t imagine myself being that important. Being that important to anyone.
I don’t know. My struggles seem endless. No matter how hard I try. But maybe it’s all for a reason. The struggles I’ve gone through will be for a greater reason. It’s to teach me so that I can help others later.
I don’t know..
I think the reason why my idea of love is so distorted is because my first love destroyed the meaning of it.
Nobody knows this about me but if you confide in me, chances are I will never forget you.
Years can pass and if we’ve grown distant, I will probably still care about you and think about you from time to time.