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"You may have created my past and screwed up my present but you have no control over my future."

John; You Don’t Know Me by David Klass

I want to punch myself in the face

I’ve been pushed around, used, neglected and abused my whole life. It’s happen to me so much that it comes naturally to me. I’ve been hurt by my own family, closest friends and even by the girl I currently like. 

For the past few months, I have been emotionally dead. I just didn’t care about anything anymore. I didn’t care about my friends, the girl I like or even myself. I was belittling myself a whole lot and just didn’t care whether it hurt or not. 

Then a few weeks ago, the girl I like comes around and apologizes for shutting me out and hurting my feelings. Before I know it, she was being nice and talking to me more. This whole time, I’ve convinced myself that I did something to drive her away. That I creep’d her out or that I made her feel uncomfortable at one point. And I’ve grown to accept that.

I want to punch myself in the face because I’m having feelings for her again after shutting them out for the past few months. I’ve had some bad days these past few weeks and it made me realize that during those bad days, I would think of her and I would feel better. Just the thought of her would take away my anger, anxiety and irritation. I’ve been crying because I’m confused as shit and I don’t know what to do. I literally have no one to talk to about any of this and it just brings back horrible memories where I was alone to figure out my own feelings. Just thinking about any of this makes me want to cry.

New life lesson

If someone makes you sad, cut them out of your life. There are amazing people out there that would love to make you happy

I just want you guys to know that if you are hurting by someone you like or are having relationship issues, you can talk to me. I will tell you about my “love issues”. YOU GUYS CAN TALK TO ME. I will listen and give feedback if you want. <3

"You deserve better, Tasha."
I’m so tired of people saying this to me. NOBODY WANTS MEEEE

  • Brother: This fucking asshole with her girlfriend problems
  • Dad: Who?
  • Brother: You know who.
  • Dad: Tasha?
  • Brother: Yeah, her!
  • Me in my room: LOL

I swear, I’m gonna become best friends with a psychiatrist one day because who the fuck am I suppose to turn to when I have problems

Nobody knows this about me but if you confide in me, chances are I will never forget you.

Years can pass and if we’ve grown distant, I will probably still care about you and think about you from time to time.